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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 15:10:40 GMT -5
I suppose you guys told us secrets through out the past. Hell, we had three big ones yesterday. Layze's Dark days, WD's life shattering news and Merloos new decisions.
I've told Merloo and he's been very understanding, I always kept this quiet, as I never wanted people to feel they could never show anger to me due to feeling sorry for me.
Although I've mentioned some of the people in it before now. It's only been pieced together. I will paste the conversation I sent to Merloo.
Say what you like, think what you like. I feel a better person. Not for what i've done here, but this and a few others things all reaching a bottleneck.
One Moment.
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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 15:18:38 GMT -5
Ah, there's honestly no point. The damage has been doen and I don't want people to think 'It's all coming now I'm in the shit.'
Ok, I will leave this board here probably for good, or after months of abandonment I may just delete it.
I'll be on the enxt few days, copying HTML codes for the other sites, but afte rthat....I'll see where the Wind takes me.
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Post by Merloo on Oct 7, 2008 15:33:10 GMT -5
Petey... where did the rest of the site go?
And it's never too late to change things. Revealing the truth can't hurt you, not anymore. It can only help.
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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 15:37:14 GMT -5
The rest of the site was whisked away by the Demons of deletion. Ray said he can get them back though. However he's only online every so many months.
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Post by Merloo on Oct 7, 2008 15:39:03 GMT -5
But why? I still didn't have everything.
And no response to my saying you should just tell them?
*sigh* Well, this is a horrible note to leave on.
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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 15:43:16 GMT -5
Ok this is what i sent Merloo....
Being as you told everybody your big secret let me tell you mine.
I was fostered at the age of 6, and I'm now 17. I Lived with Foster Parents until 2 year ago. Now my old stepfather was an ex army Lt, and had bad flash backs from the War and was very aggressive...To me my mum and me...Being Punched and kicked by an 6'1 army lt hurt. Believe me.
Finally I plucked the courage to tell Police when I was 15 and I ran from home, I was missing for a week. The Police found me and I told all, I shown them the bruises, shown them the homework he'd ripped up, and my Playstation he smashed. The cops accused him of ABUSING A POSITION OF TRUST AND POWER.
I now live with a new foster family, well, I say new. For two years now, but they have kids younger than me and I found myself able to boss them round a bit, after all it's all I known. I found myself for years and even still today. Abusing power. When I was left to manage when the boss went out at work, I started arguing with the other staff knowing they wouldn't answer back, and same here I knew that I could easily delete this place.
I found myself very lonely, I have friends but, you know. Then last week, a guy in work punched me and I got this anger from somewhere, and got up and punched with every anger in my body as his laugh sounded exactly like my old foster father, when he watched me fall to floor, but back then it was in tears.
I hit him back, and a man twice my size fell. I looked at him, he'd bullied me for months. I ended it, he got up and walked off.
I never liked being bullied by my Foster father or anyone, who doe like being bullied? But my downfall was, I also kind of bullied those who had no power against me.
That night, I was very upset. My New foster family were getting fed up of me getting sent home from my little part time job, so i took the time to ring my real Family. My mum put me up for foster when she was became depressed after giving birth..what do they call it? Post natal? I'm not sure.
As I grew older, as you know you get a bit cheeky, and this added to my mums stress, The More stressed, the more she would argue with my dad. The more My dad began to hate me, and after 6 years, despised me and accused me ruining the marriage and had manipulated my own mum against me and so I was put under adoption after they said to social services they unfit to care for me.
However two years ago, they rang me. It was a 4 hour call with lots of tears, and we've kept in touch since then. Now things look rocky with my current foster family, and that's why I'm going home.
Point of it is, after the pissing the guys of in work by being a tit with them, knowing they couldn't answer me back as I'd been left in charge. Also with here, I even started bringing it on here. Wrong I know, but It helped. However when it all came to a head, what happened- happened. I punched guy and later on acted an ass on here.
It lost me friends in work, lost me a job (and him but not the point) and also friends on here and a few real life friends who were sick of the attitude,,,and thats when it hit home. I felt better instantly, it was strange. Here I am now.
I never told anybody as I didn't want people scared to show anger or anything towards me out of sympathy.
That's it. I may never speak to you again online so I don't really care what you think of me now.
Just a mutual respect after what you said about your personal life, it's only fair I give my side.
Petey.
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Post by Merloo on Oct 7, 2008 15:44:11 GMT -5
*hug* And you did a big thing here today. If we can all just be open with each other, maybe we can still be friends.
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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 15:49:18 GMT -5
MERLOO REPLIES No in hind sight. I think Yeah i feel better for it, but I wish i could just use on eof those pens like In emn and black so you guys forget and I can still feel like I've got all this shit off my chest. I've told a few freinds my story over the year but I don't like people being all "Awww". I'm 17 and does nothing for my mental strength which I've been building back up for the past two years. Yeah, sure. (I GIVE E-MAIL ADDRESS) Wow, just telling someone even online feels good. I know lots of people have troubles in thier life, I don't want to seem over the top but I had a harsh early teens, I'm looking forward now though and into my future instea dof hanging on to the past. MERLOO REPLIES Yeah, I laughed at that when you said and earlier today I thought to myself. Here I am now telling you. Yeah, It's not that I don't want people to care. It's just nobody in my life has been around long enough for me to bother even telling them. The social service women says Mym mum and dad are fit again now, and deep down I know they never weren't unfit and I've also found out off my old next door neighbour I have a little Brother and things are looking up. Yeah I suppose I got power hungry, the only thing that ever listened to me otherwise in my life is a TV remote (Part from the batteries died XD) Yeap, but I feel better. In some ways your pain is equal to mine. Mine is in my past hopefully, yours is in your future. Both effect equally. A bad start to life can bugger thigns up, and a occurence in early mid or hell even late life can be hard times. Thanks either way though END..... Thanks Merloo About the rest of the site....Java Blues on MSN, i'll ask him.
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Post by Merloo on Oct 7, 2008 15:51:15 GMT -5
Not sure if the rest was needed, but no matter. I really wish we could just leave this site alone now. I had a lot of fun here, and I don't want to let go of it just yet.
Plus the address is easy to remember.
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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 16:13:28 GMT -5
So what is it your asking?
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Post by Meowzer on Oct 7, 2008 16:45:25 GMT -5
Well, I hope you have it good for the rest of your life. It must've been tough back then.
I won't hold a grudge, but I will ask if you could leave just the border, so at least 1 board still exist on SMKW.
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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 16:46:55 GMT -5
Hold a grudge if you really want. I posted it so you guys had answers, not too try and get me out of the shit.
I've found out I can drag all the Boards back up, but I can't be assed making them all postable again.
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Post by Meowzer on Oct 7, 2008 16:56:41 GMT -5
I said I WON'T hold a grudge. And please, could you at least leave the border?
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Post by Petey P on Oct 7, 2008 17:10:44 GMT -5
Yes OK.
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Post by Mr.Makutawsome on Oct 7, 2008 17:20:05 GMT -5
So, that's your life story.
Wow.
Well, I can't really say much for this, so I'll leave you with this little saying:
"The Past can not be changed, but the Future is yet in your power."
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